A propos #offlinealbum …I thought for a long time about why the reception (or lack thereof) of my music sometimes doesn't bother me at all and other times frustrates the hell out of me.
It seems that I have two fundamentally distinct modes of making #music
Mode 1 is the producer mode. I feel I have a story to tell, and I do my very best to do exactly that. I don't rest before it's as perfect as I can possibly make it. And once it's done, I want people to hear it.
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#malershüs had its majority of tracks done in "producer mode". Not all tracks, but many. I wanted to tell a story. Which probably explains why its initial reception really got me down.
Mode 2 is "spontaneous artistic eruption mode" – there is something inside me that comes out (most of the times, very surprisingly), and I couldn't care less if it goes under in a wave of bad fascist news and cute cat pictures, because it would have come out anyway.
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Both "The Drunken Fisherman" and "Biike" had their majority of tracks created in this mode, which probably explains why I was perfectly fine with what I got.
For the #offlinealbum I try to work in mode 2 as much as I can (which is not to say that the stuff I do in mode 1 is worth less, or that it's the "wrong" way of making music. It's just not very healthy for me. I'm very proud of it, and as long as there is feedback, like it was on #fedivision, it wasn't a problem for me to do it).
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@stephan@sonomu.club Makes sense, yes. Once a lifepartner accused (yes, accused! ) me of creating from the flesh, as a compulsion. Of course he was right in a big part. It doesn't mean I haven't cried and sweated to bring things to life when the compulsion is not present. But when it's there... When you must go you must go, and going to the bathroom is reward enough (sorry for the parallelism).
The balance is possible anyway, and I'm very pleased to see that offline album is flying.
@Langile aaaah, a pee-pee parallel… love it!!