draco @draco@sonomu.club

Conclusion I draw from this: I want to do more solo music. Maybe I should find me someone locally with decent piano skills to do some classical repertoire with.

Addendum: In this specific situation, the concert involved a song that triggers dysphoria about my assigned/perceived gender* for me. I managed to get out of singing it, but having to listen is bad enough.

I have been angry for the past week because of it. So now I'm glad that this is over. Next concert will be classical music.

* As a genderqueer/nonbinary AFAB femme, I'm always misread as cis and straight.

Interesting how I get into a very specific headspace while performing and then getting out of it includes being very talkative and kinda hyper for a few hours. Also, I get hungry. And I will probably feel like I was run over by a truck tomorrow.

Concert is done. It was surprisingly fun and went very well and now I'm hyper and hungry.

(Also I got high praise from someone whose very keen ears I trust.)

Also, there's a persistent idea in my head for a composition involving voices, Supercollider and ancient greek poetry.

Concert with my choir tonight and I have major resistance to finally writing that moderation for one song.

I also have ambivalent feelings about this concert. We're singing jazz, and I long to be back in the classical realm.

Maybe it's also my associations with the kind of music we're doing and the way we're performing it and the way it's gendered/doesn't allow any space for my queerness.

When I sing classical concert music, my gender can be opera diva.

Hello club! I have been traveling. Home now, after three weeks abroad, visiting the wife's family.

I need to sleep off my jetlag, unpack and do laundry, as well as fill the fridge and pantry again.

But above all, pet the cat. She didn't take our being away so long very well, it seems.

#dracoTravels #homeAgain

Home again after a weekend with friends. I might have gotten an offer for an electric guitar and an amp from very dear, generous friends.

Taxes for last year: done. Now I just need to catch up on my current accounting.

Learning an arrangement of "Master of Puppets" for concert guitar. This one makes me want to practice every day just so I can feel the progress I'm making with getting those riffs into my fingers.

I might need to increase my budget for strings, I have the feeling I'm going to destroy strings more quickly with violent playing like that.

@stephan @phoe @Mightyflea thank you! I'll probably be better tomorrow, or the day after tomorrow.

Ugh. I have the Deadly Singer Cold. *is very miserable* *blows her nose for the 15th time this hour*

But I think it turned out OK, given that the material was "just plunk a mic in front of the choir and press record".

I did the post-production of a rehearsal recording yesterday and now I remember why I dislike working with commercial closed-source software.

Next time, I'll fire up my UbuntuStudio machine again.

I have not created anything in weeks or even months and that makes me sad. I feel like I am missing a part of myself.

Music-related thing I'm going to do today: Edit some recordings I took during this week's rehearsal so we have sing-along music to practice with on our own.

It's going to be pretty basic because what can you do with a "I put my H4N where the audience would be and hit 'record'" take apart from normalizing and maybe a bit of EQ?