Poise Under Chaos @poiseunderchaos@sonomu.club

You want to know my politics? I might very well be a crabby asshole if you get me started, so maybe not.

I'm way "left of center" and anarchist on top of it, so my chances of not liking your opinions are pretty high, statistically speaking in the good old U.S. of A...which unfortunately does not stand for Anarchy or anything else good starting with that letter. Apples, Aardvarks, anything

*writes a piece in 0/4 time*

"didn't john cage do that?" you would think, and yet, no. 4'33" is still about time, after all

Anybody on the internet: *asserts a mainstream political thought* This is mine! i made it myself

PR firms: heheh

#looptober #funk

good morning, fedi

"hectic and relieved" is sort of the mood here. went deep into researching a music tech thing (means to an end) and actually made some progress, called (ugh because what sort of inaccessible nightmare are phones, hello) the internet provider to make sure that i wasn't getting shit i did not order as part of this move that's happening (which i'm not, it appears), and overall...a good day, or two.

#looptober

ok, it's working now. /whew

/vent

"compile it yourself"

assuming technical expertise from non-technical users, nice ;p

also, i can in fact do that, but the devs say specifically not to, and it'd be great to not break some shit, then have to go through the additional hassle of fixing it, and for...what, exactly

and it's not even like i can get pissed about it! it's free, everybody's time matters, including my own, and so on.

it's just frustrating, because i want to go that route rather than throwing money at shit, or whatever. but when it's over some half-assed thing, like not formatting the naming convention right, so (apparently) the thing doesn't compile? *grumbles*

not that "throwing money at something" means that it's not shit, either. *coughs* adobe

i appreciate it loads when people take the time to write digital audio software and release it for free.

this kind of thing though:

- free thing vs. similar thing that costs money

- free thing requires a specific approach downloading things for it, or compiling source code

- the thing doesn't work

*waits a year or so*

*checks back in*

same problems

Keef Knight flicking stale beer on the cop who assaulted him *chef's kiss*

it's especially treacherous as a composer, because i have this tendency to fall in love with timbres. which can be a very fruitful part of composing! unless things like "you need a master's degree or equivalent in signal processing to understand that" start to crop up. oops

all of which would be a lot more manageable, if technology wasn't constantly evolving. it tends to favor the highly nerdy and tangentially creative.

as a sound designer, all of this still frustrates me, but it's also "the waters i swim in" much more than as a producer/composer.

but part of knowing how to do all this kind of thing is not getting sucked into that, either. while still working with the times where it's like getting your teeth cleaned (or a tooth extracted).

so i do it, but it can get *very* frustrating. especially when it's more in the way than anything, but the seed idea, and the related production-based needs, persist.

it's kind of like this

"where do you get your ideas?"

"ideas? *looks at the horizon, wistfully" buried in a sea of dread and failed promises...oh wait, you mean literally that, nm"

but any creative discipline that has a strong skills-based component to is has the same problems. it's definitely true for novel writing, and "fine arts", for example.